yOu doNt KnoW wHaT iTs LiKe tO be Me!!

2008-01-23T17:33:00.000+08:00

okay.
this is going to be official

I AM MOVING (LIKE SERIOUSLY MOVING) TO LIVEJOURNAL :D
(although this is kinda obvious, like long time ago)
THIS BLOG WILL STILL BE AVAILABLE, JUST THAT IT'S GOING TO BE DEAD.

moving to: yesyoudo
:D

2008-01-02T00:14:00.000+08:00

another year just passed. and 2007 has been a great year for me. especially in hockey.

seriously, when i sat down and think about what really happened this year, i can't remember much. probably here and there.

february 2007 - end of my year 2
march 2007 - i met someone new
april 2007 - start of school, which also remind me of the cca carnival. i was glad we made it there, or else, i wouldn't have known all the juniors now
july 2007 - tessa went to aussie
0ctober 2007 - my 19th birthday and the beginning of pol-ite 07
november 2007 - end of pol-ite
december 2007 - tess's back in singapore :D

other than this, i can't remember anything much though. anyhows, it has been a great year (:

2007-12-25T12:40:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :D

hmm. it's finally christmas. and we're at the end of 2007 :D that's kinda fast.

christmas eve was like normal. however, i stayed up later, watched the tv and mind your language from youtube. all the jokes just make you feel a lot better, especially when you're stuck alone.

mind your language;

ranjeet: yesterday ali called me a monkey face
max: he shouldn't call you a monkey face
ranjeet: oh, thank you max
max: it's not your fault you look like that

mr brown: ranjeet, your task was a visit to High Gate Cemetry. What did you see?
ranjeet: i'm seeing many beautiful graves stones. and some of them have written on them beautiful words. i'm writing one down. you are gone my dearest wife. still i feel no pain. for i know at heaven's gate, we will meet again
-giovanni cried-
mr brown: what's the matter?
giovanni: i can't help it professor. it's so sad. that poor husband he must have loved his wife very much
ranjeet: please don be sad. the husband is being very happy
giovanni: how do you know?
ranjeet: he's dying the year after
giovanni: oh thank goodness, i'm so happy for him.
ranjeet: and they are both being football fans
mr brown: how on earth do you know that?
ranjeet: he is having put on his stone: United Forever

-during a debate about television in the class-
ali: i am thinking television is very bad cause it's showing too much violence
mr brown: good point
ali: thank you. last night i'm seeing somebody being drown and shot and then, have their heads chopped off
mr brown: what was that? the professionals or starsky and hutch?
ali: tom and jerry.

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lol. watching the clips are a lot funnier, with their super confident face expression!

2007-12-16T16:43:00.000+08:00

It's over, it's over, it's over:

It seems you can't hear me
When I open my mouth you never listen
You say stay, but what does that mean
Do you think I honestly want to be reminded forever

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

It's not easy not answering
Every time I want to talk to you
But I can't
If you only knew the hell I put myself through
Replaying memories in my head of you and I
Every night

Don't waste your time trying to fix
What I want to erase
What I need to forget
Don't waste your time on me my friend
Friend, what does that even mean
I don't want your hand
You'll only pull me down
So save your breath
Don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You're callin' You're talkin' You're tryin'
Tryin' to get in
But it's over, it's over, it's over
Friend

Don't waste your time trying to fix it
So save your breath, don't waste your song
On me, on me
Don't waste your time

You held me
You felt me
You left me
But it's over, it's over, it's over

You touched me
You had me
But it's over, it's over, it's over my friend
Don't waste my time

2007-12-14T17:39:00.000+08:00

calling for ng sin ee!

i'm missing you like mad. pizza soon please :D

2007-12-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

RAWR! CAN PEOPLE JUST STOP SMOKING?
YOU POLLUTE THE DAMN AIR!
grrrr.

2007-12-11T12:40:00.000+08:00

your momma is so fat that she can't clap.

HAA HAA HAA!
one of the yo momma jokes.

2007-12-07T12:28:00.000+08:00

i'm having the monthly pms week.
no appetite, no mood, and so hot tempered. frays easily.
brrr. and office's freezing like snow city. but so far, it has yet to rain.
finishing all my work. now left the leftovers.
and i'm so addicted to the song.
can't stop playing it.
can't wait for tonight and tomorrow :D

2007-12-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

~~i'm afraid, i'm turning into someone i never want to be.~~
yes, i'm fine :D

2007-11-29T22:51:00.000+08:00

HAA! very funny clarence.

and thanks for making it worst for canon.
HAA HAA.

2007-11-27T10:20:00.000+08:00

grrr.
what a way to start work. it rained. heavily.
i'm drenched. that goes without saying.
ok. i better get umbrella!
freezing for now ):

2007-11-21T16:00:00.000+08:00

Your Animal Personality

Your Power Animal: Deer
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Panda
You are a fun-seeker - an adventurous, risk-taker.While you are spontaneous, you are not very rational.

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate.
At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating.
When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism.

In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative.
Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels.
You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

Your Style is Classy

You've got class, and you know how to put together a guy catching outfit
You're more likely to shop at Bloomie's than bebe
For you style is looking like a million bucks...
And you're always do with your fantastic yet feminine wardrobe

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.
You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.
Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.
And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

2007-11-20T10:02:00.000+08:00

okay.
i just need to rant. cause today's not my day ):

i planned to leave home quite early. so by 820, my laptop was shut down, bag was packed, almost ready to go out. when i was about to go out, i can't find my shoes. so, minutes was wasted to find my shoes. checked the time. 825. i can make it to office in time. i walked till yew tee, then realise, i forgot to bring my ez link card. ARGH! walk all the way back home to get it. reached jurong east, and i missed the bus. so i had to wait for the next bus.

whoa. it really isn't a happy tuesday morning ):

2007-11-19T14:32:00.000+08:00

stop it. stop seeking sympathy. i'm tired of hearing it.
everytime you talk to me, that's all you ever said.
that you've changed. that you are not yourself anymore.
i don't know what you're getting at.
probably that i'm the cause of it.
but guess what?
i'm out of sympathy. i'm sick of hearing all those lies.
and i've got nothing to say to you.
everytime i try to build that innocent and clean conversation.
this is all i ever hear. from then, till now.
you never change. you are the same.
so stop seeking sympathy. i'm so sick of it.

2007-11-15T10:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the last game. the very last game. and we won, at the very last minute. i am so happy, so proud of the girls. :D

overall result:
NP vs ITE : 0-1
NP vs SP : 1-0
NP vs NYP : 0-6
NP vs TP : 1-0

yes, i know the results may not be impressive, but i'm still so proud of my team.

GONGEEANNGO!

2007-11-13T23:02:00.001+08:00

unknowingly, celebrating the 8th month :)

and i've got a rose!

and it brought me closer to tomorrow.
argh. i don't want tomorrow to come.

2007-11-13T13:56:00.001+08:00

no, i don't want tomorrow to come.
i just don't want.
i don't want it to be the last.
i might need a little longer.

2007-11-12T12:29:00.000+08:00

mr brown: juan, you're not paying attention.
juan: i am paying attention.
mr brown: alright what did i just say?
juan: you say, juan you're not paying attention.
mr brown: quiet. it's before that one.
juan: er, before that, er, you're right. i not paying attention.
mr brown: we were discussing 'i' before 'e' except after 'c'
juan: arh, ok.
mr brown: spell receipt.
juan: por favor (please).
mr brown: you heard, spell receipt.
juan: eh, 'r-e-c', er, 'i' before 'e' except 'c', 'E'
mr brown: good.
juan: 'i-t'.
mr brown: oh c'mon think. you missed something out. what comes before 't'.
juan: er, breakfast.

haa. lol. mind your language is so funny.

and those funny feelings came again, yesterday. i couldn't help it. i felt terrible whenever i got those funny feelings. it never seem to go away, completely. and the tears never seem to stop. i don't like this. and i'm so sorry.

2007-11-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Tessa :)

anyways, i've a livejournal. therefore, will be blogging and livejournaling from now on.
my livejournal

2007-11-03T12:56:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling very out of place.
trying my best to fit.
yes, i'll try. yet again.
i'm so used to this.

2007-11-02T23:11:00.000+08:00

my attachment requires to use some certain software which i'm not so good at. so, i've been going around looking for tutorials and tutorials. so, came across something and i came out with something. here goes, it is based on some stupid joke he tried to tell me, but he told me with the wrong details. anyways, this is the retro comic effect :) with the use of flash. lol, but flash's not working here but the effect's there, badly done :x

disappointed again in the game.

c'mon girls. we can do so much better than this.

gongeeanngo.

2007-10-30T06:56:00.000+08:00

"zie, mark your man close. stay close. come forward and tackle."
those were the words i keep hearing on the pitch last thursday.
those voices, those images haunt me till now.
i don't know why, but i just can't forget.
it shouldn't be a goal still.
if only i could have perform better...

2007-10-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

today was the very first game for pol-ite. and i am very disappointed with myself. i don't know what hit me, but i was just not playing my best. in fact, this was the worse i've played. everyone came up to me and told me i could play so much better than this. so much more. i just can't stop feeling disappointed. i know i'm so much better than this.

i'm just so disappointed.

2007-10-21T23:19:00.000+08:00

today was the finals for Singapore International Hockey Challenge. as soon as i reached there, i saw the Australia women's team walking out, with gold medals. enough said.

and on the pitch, the Singapore and Pakistan's men team were preparing themselves. A few shots, drills, and they were set for the game. the game started off quite well. and with the 3 goals scored in the first half by Pakistan, tension filled the stadium. i was there, hoping Singapore would at least score a goal. 3-1 doesn't sound that bad at least. and Singapore team did, with a short corner. however, Pakistan scored again, and ended the game with 4-1. although they lost, i was so proud of our Singapore team that they managed to get into the semi-finals.

the next game was something i've been looking forward for. India vs Australia. must be exciting seeing two strong team aiming for the first place. the game started, as soon, it got a little boring, cause none of the team is scoring, neither did they get any short corners. it was just mere passing and attempt to score.

i was hoping at least one of the team could score, to create tension. the India team did during the second half. and the Australia team was back for a goal within a few seconds. and everyone should have seen the last goal. it was amazing. can't manage to describe it in words :)

2007-10-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling moody/down/irritated/frustrated/lonely all at the same time.
i guess, just going back to the old days.

again.

2007-10-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

today, could have been any normal tuesday. but no. that wasn't the way it turned out. i woke up on time today. in fact, way before my alarm (which is my mum) rang. slowly got up, pick some clothes to wear, went to bathe, pack my bag, ate my breakfast and slack in front of the computer. again. i'm getting sick of computer. i wonder how people live their everyday life with it.

as per normal, slacking in front of the computer, accompanied by chocolates, made me rushed out of the house then. i'm always rushing due to this. once you slack, you don't feel like doing anything else. lucky for me, i wasn't wearing heels. it made walking -and running- much easier. however, i reached 5 minutes before i should. slack throughout the whole morning, till the boss found out that we got nothing to do. being nice, he told us, after lunch, he would be giving work.

went for early lunch at 1130. i ate quite a huge meal, that i'm not hungry till now. then, when i'm almost done, clarence, martina and the boss joined us for lunch. and there, we talked just like normal friends, joke, opinions, views and thoughts were shared. and for once, i used a total of one hour for lunch break :). actually, they are quite funny and friendly people. i should be enjoying my attachment in such environment. but somehow, i missed school that i went to MEL knowing there would be nothing for me there.

work was given to me. totally different from my partner's. so, i'm on my own for this task. was quite lost from the start. then, i somehow figure out how to do and get some guidance from my senior. i finished it before six. i hope i'm on the right track.

arh, it's been a week since i start my attachment. and a week more to game. a week more to the ending of everything :) i'm glad. more than just happy. ecstatic.

after work, met him a little while. i celebrated my birthday with his family, with two cakes ad nineteen candles. yes, all nineteen of them. and it made me realise, i've blew more than nineteen candles today, had more than one cake (six cakes altogether). but thanks for all of the cakes.

i don't know what to feel. for now.

happy birthday.

2007-10-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

today, i'm 19 years old. yes, 19 years old. damn it. i must stop going around saying that i'm 18 plus. pffft. by 12 am today, messages start coming in. i'm glad i put my phone off to silent mode before i sleep (which i normally don't), or else, i can't sleep with all the messages coming in. the wishes were nice. thanks everyone :)

however, this year, birthday's different. normally, i meet my friends, on the day itself. but this year, i'm out with my family for hari raya visiting. my friends celebrated my birthday last thursday, and it felt weird when someone's not around. missing her. somehow counting down to the day she's back here :). and she sent me an e-card :D. i miss her even more now.

this year, has been different. very different. but, i'm contented with what i have, and what i am now. thanks everyone, for all the wishes :) i'm 19. PFFFT!

next week's schedule is super duper duper tight. can't wait to get over it. pffft.

2007-10-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

arh. camera got screwed.
spoil my day, dying to snap tons of pictures. i even carry extra battery in case. argh. however, managed to snap a few. don't worry, nothing about the camera functions or something.
it dropped.
heartpain ):

did something out of boredom.

supposed to be something plain and simple.
but cause of me and my itchy hand, it turns out like this.

our first movie. our song :)

exactly seven months ago.

130307 :)

2007-10-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

today marks the last day of fasting month. today's also freddy's and ravi's birthday :) happy birthday guys.

let's start with yesterday. after work, went to meet the gang to celebrate ravi's and fred's birthday (unknowingly, they celebrated mine too). it was nice to meet after such a long time. went bowling for 2 games. and i played crap as usual, but, i score one strike. and i was damn happy with just one strike. naturally lousy at bowling. so, a strike is more than enough to make me smile through the night. so, the laughter, the cake and the present made me really happy. and i won't forget the "nizam's girl" nick they gave me. that was funny too.

today was a long day. and there's ups and downs all in one day. what a way to end a fasting month. work finish damn early today. i think i only worked for 2 hours. during lunch period, they went to kbox, had a farewell time for one of them, at same time celebrated birthdays. yes they celebrated mine too. i was touched. i just joined them few days back, and they wer celebrating my birthday. sweet.

met sin ee for slippers exchange. managed to do so. got myself some new jeans :) i love. can't wait to wear them. then, we headed to training. and after training, no one should know, cause, it's just nothing good to know. nothing. and my day had to end like that. how wonderful.

i'm sorry if i'm a little too obsess, but all i wanted was just to commit.
and if you don't bother, than don't care. you didn't ask if i need to eat. you didn't care that i just got home, have yet to unpack. you just know that work's done fast and quick. whatever makes you happy.

first time

2007-10-09T22:28:00.000+08:00

like what i hope, everyone in the company is friendly. it's just a small company, so i guess, that's why everyone is so friendly towards each other. felt quite comfortable with the surroundings after quite some time. and i'm allowed to bring my own cup for coffee and stuffs. and we're allowed to wear jeans to work. how wonderful. dress smart casual, or something. never really see the difference.

today, we weren't filled with projects straightaway. we had small trainings to learn how to use new softwares, and the softwares used are really interesting!

met him after work. had dinner over at his place. and a ride home. what's better than today?

i think it's pms again. i just don't feel like talking for now. ):

today.

2007-10-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

yes today, like a few more hours, and i'll be on attachment. argh. i just wish to have another week of holidays just like all my other schoolmates. but still, i'mlooking forward. met my internship partner just now. no idea who he was. but now i do. friendly. that's very comforting. i mean, it's always best to work with someone you feel comfortable with rather than someone you don't. i just hope the supervisor is as friendly :)

went shopping for my office wear. almost went nuts. when you need something, it just isn't there. how frustrating. however, managed to get some. and he was being very patient (thank god).

okay, i just hope, today, won't be crazy :)

sunday's game was good. so proud of everyone. they played well. even coach said so. i love the girls :D

2007-10-04T11:42:00.000+08:00

There are moments when I don't know if it's real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

i miss all of these today :(

if it's meant to be...

2007-10-02T22:33:00.000+08:00

If it's meant to be,
It can only be good.

i love this phrase, which (in certain cases) is true. like how we believe there's blessing in disguise.

anyway, had my last lesson today. no more lesson. left evaluation and test, then i'll be on my way to pratical - provided, i pass the test. felt quite relieve that i've cleared the lessons. cause, they're time wasting, time consuming, and incomprehensible. especially about the clutch. so confusing, and the worst part, when they try to explain it verbally, when it's better shown. very confusing.

however, i was looking forward to what's happening after lesson. yes, shopping :D. suppose to just get one bag, ended up buying more than just a bag. looks like, i've got to start saving.

i'm so tired. i'm just so tired of everything. i need a break.

2007-09-30T23:14:00.001+08:00

I AM SERIOUSLY HAVING PMS NOW!
pffft.

a friendly match

2007-09-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

i still have yet to recover from my cramps and exhaustion, but coach insisted on doing something "real" again yesterday. so, currently, suffering from more cramps. but i enjoyed myself in every training, no matter how tiring it has been, i enjoyed it and i know it's for our own good.

and today, we had a friendly match against tp. and i seriously can't help it but to curse the weather. it was raining heavily, and as a result, we didn't get to play for long. pfft. and the pitch was flooded, made it even worst. the ball could hardly travel far and fast. PFFT. we scored a goal, thanks to janna :) and of course everyone who played a part in bringing up the ball :D

it seems like only kat has the perfect hand for this picture. and she'll be so proud of herself when she reads this.

seriously, everyone should just stop asking me and give comments. let's get straight here. i don't do things to impress people. i just want to feel good about myself. and if that's an inconvenience to anyone's live, i'm sorry, there's nothing i can do about it. and your opinion doesnt make me feel better about myself. neither did it bring up my morale and confidence. so please, just let me do what i want. and stop commenting. you won't know till you go through it yourself.

ecstasy

2007-09-25T21:10:00.001+08:00

like what it has been, for real, a long day for me today. pffft. and i was cursing myself each minute for being in such a mess. okay, not really a mess, something i enjoy doing, just that it gets tiring each day.

yesterday's training was per normal. the only different was that, we didn't do any dynamics. coach decided to do something more "real". and the next second, we were running around the pitch. yes, i need treatment for my leg cramps and my exhaustion. i was glad i managed to pull through. we played attack and defence game. and i probably (actually, very sure) that i did a few mistakes here and there.

today, i just wished my alarm clock did not ring. seriously, i was dead tired. a crazy training plus the inability to sleep early, and the need of waking up early during this fasting month, really make me wish that i had all the time in the world to sleep. but no, i wake myself up from a wonderful dream, forced myself out of bed and hurry to the toilet. i have to be awake for my test.

i reached bbdc on time, and so did joanne. and it felt like, finally i met joanne. it has really been a long time. we went into the practice room, thinking we had forgotten whatever we practice 3 weeks ago. but, i was lucky as almost all of the questions and answers are still fresh in my mind. i almost died of boredom doing the practice. all the boring practice pay off in the end, and i passed my basic theory test. finally moving on to the blue book (: ecstatic and elated.

close to perfect happiness.

and i'm so looking forward to tomorrow's training, and dinner. and tomorrow's tomorrow's game :)

adequacy

2007-09-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

i was so excited, knowing there was a hockey match yesterday. and of course, i went, although were quite late. i bet, i missed the start of the game, but i was glad i did not miss any of the goals. it was SRC vs the police. both farhan and izzat were playing, in different team. yes, you should have watched it. especially when they bumped into each other, one trying to score and another trying to defence.

and i seriously can't forget the second goal. it was perfect and amazing. watching them play hockey was adequate to make feel terrible about the way i play. every second they dribble the ball, and there i went saying, "if only i could do that..." the way i play is very disappointing.

we met ben, who was playing for SRC. still the same skinny ben. we approached him. and he still remembers. i'm contented.

everyone should watch this. it is hilarious :D

late night thoughts

2007-09-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

i couldn't sleep well last night as my mind couldn't stop thinking about everything.
about my past, my present and my future.

i just can't stop thinking and the phrase, "if only..." and, "what if..." keeps going through my mind. sometimes it's nice to think about these stuffs to prepare yourself for the worst. but how prepared can we get? can we bear to lose something or someone close? i can't. and so the thoughts keep flowing. and i felt worst than ever. i can't stop thinking, and i can't stop feeling like crap.

and i thought about us. i don't know how long you will stay. i don't how long will you be around. but i knew whatever happen between us was magical. one moment i felt like we had nothing in common. nothing at all. and another moment, we are finishing eah other sentences. one moment it felt like we can't connect and communicate. and another, we're telling each other every single thing. and it felt longer than ever. it felt like we know each other for so long.

and i just can't stop thinking about what's going to happen next. and i don't like the feeling.

horoscope

2007-09-16T18:46:00.000+08:00

from seventeen magazine:

the libra girl is: fair to friends, level-headed and easy-going
your special trait: you love to bring people together
your little secret: you can't resist a good gossip
best matches: leo, gemini, aries
best avoided: pisces, taurus, capricorn
lucky days: oct 3, 14, 17

reading horoscopes has always been something fun to me. especially when i need to kill time, or out of boredom. but sometimes i wonder, if they were ever true.

the results.

2007-09-14T14:34:00.000+08:00

i was prepared to sleep all the way to noon today. i have reasons. well, the past few days have been real tiring with all the trainings crashing my day. and i had a very long day yesterday. and so, i told myself, sleep all you want tomorrow. when the clock struck 8, my phone rang, and of course woke me up from my beauty sleep. i was seriously cursing whoever message me then, till i saw a very familiar sender. ngee ann polytechnic. i was awake. read my results. how disappointing.

but, being a easily contented girl, i was very happy i did not screw my programming papers. although the result was close to fail, but still i was happy not to repeat another semester, so i could happily graduate in 3 years and continue my life. however, sometimes you have expectations for a certain module. yes, i do. and i did not achieve it. very unsatisfying.

and i'm awake till now.

just another day

2007-09-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

had crazy training yesterday.
and so, i was dead today.
can't run much and the sun is a super killer.
but after training, the bath made it feel so much better.
i love trainings (not during fasting months).

went to town with him. watch no reservation :D
sweet movie. the tiramisu seems so delicious.
the shopping was fun (:

and i realise another thing in common.
the way we sign our names.
:)

2007-09-13T01:07:00.000+08:00

hello.

yes, i finally got back my laptop :D

shall update the daily life.

friday:

the girls - pebs, ruz and sin - came over.

to make cookies :D

but one out of two turn out nice

hey, it's not a bad turn out :D

sunday:

helping out at HSBC family day.
it was filled with fun :D

watched rogue assassin.

still can recall the super sick scene.

tuesday:

out with the hockey people.

not much of them, only five of us -.-

watched dead silence.

i hate dummies. i never like dummies!

and today, i had training. and some toots just pissed me off.

i'm not happy with what they write/say.

i just need a little appreciation for what we try to do for you.

not expecting much, but still not appreciated.

and i can't stand fake people. get real!

2007-09-04T21:56:00.000+08:00

today's a super long day.
went down to bbdc today.
to take my evaluation.
i know. a bit slow right.
like i registered last year, and now still evaluation -.-
but i was too busy (and lazy) during the school period.
but now, i've booked my test.
so, left with test, and i'm moving on :D

on the way to bbdc, i met 3 people.
haikal, ravi and xian en.
anyways, he was taking his practical test.
and i was afraid for him too.
but i've got faith in him.
but you know, people get nervous and do nonsense.
i'm glad he didn't.
he passed :D

and he drove me home (:

army open house

2007-09-02T18:41:00.001+08:00

yesterday, went to army open house :)
and you get to see all the army guys.
and the guns and tanks.
i played some of the games.
erm, to be specific, 2 only.
lol. didn't feel like playing any.
and there's tons and tons and tons of people there.
sometimes i just don't understand why parents bring small kids there.
but, whatever.

i'm damn hungry now.
hunt for food!

2007-08-31T17:48:00.000+08:00

went to training.
excited. it's been a while since i had pitch training.
of course, coach was nice and friendly.
training was hell, must have been the stamina.
i was dead, quite fast :x
was somehow quite disappointed/irritated/pissed.
after that.

cause, no one got my back.

a gathering

2007-08-30T22:06:00.000+08:00

a class gatheirng which happened, 2 days ago, 28th aug 2007.

not everyone turned up.

only eight of us.

i enjoyed my time.

and finally, we happen to click.

we ate, laugh, joke, talk.

i really mean talk.

like about what's going on in each other's lives.

it's surprising how we managed to talk.

cause it's definitely a total different feeling from the normal gathering.

now, i want to plan more :D

and yes, we'll meet up again. soon.

today, had a trip to east coast.

bad choice (totally screwed up weather)

it was raining, and super duper windy.

but, we managed to cycle and had a good time.

with a few stops due to rain.

other than that, i just had fun.

but, i didn't get to eat my cockles ):

2007-08-29T12:17:00.000+08:00

boredom strikes again.
so here comes the quizzes :D

You Should Get a MFA (Masters of Fine Arts)

You're a blooming artistic talent, even if you aren't quite convinced.You'd make an incredible artist, photographer, or film maker.

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.
You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.
You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back.
In relationships, you are practical and realistic. You have a romantic side, but you only let it out when it's appropriate.

What Your Soul Really Looks Like

You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.
You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.
You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.
Your near future is calm, relaxing, and pretty much what you want. And it's something you've been anticipating for a while now.
For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

i'm feeling it again.

emo-ing.

don't feel like going for training

don't feel like doing anything.

sighs. can't stop thinking.

losing it again.

2007-08-27T23:34:00.000+08:00

15 mins late.
5 mins to walk to bus stop.
(well, sin ee took 6 mins).
5 mins of withdrawing cash.
5 mins of waiting for the bus.
2 mins stuck at cck interchange.
10 mins stand and watch floorball game.
and we go on blaming each other for the delay yesterday.

went to watch hanif and faeez's game :D
nice game.
and they did better than the other team.
waited for them.
went for dinner with jay and momin.
played bluff with small cards.

i had fun :)

the lights! SIN EE!

and we had gym today.
felt good burning all the fats.

i did lots of thinking.
a lot of stuffs went through my mind yesterday night.
and i just can't stop thinking.
the if and if nots.
kept quiet. and continue thinking.

ok i better stop thinking :D

2007-08-25T23:43:00.000+08:00

C PROGRAMMING PAPER WAS SO
FULL OF CRAP

and like always, i screw it up.

yay.
what's a better start for holidays
other then screwing papers?

2007-08-24T00:37:00.001+08:00

tomorrow's the last paper :D
and it has to be c programming.
how exciting.

i can't wait for training.
i can't wait for saturday.
and i can't wait for sunday.
and i can't wait for tuesday.
:D

in short, i'm looking forward to holidays.

2007-08-21T16:50:00.000+08:00

due to boredom
and the reluctance to study.

You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

You Belong in LA

Forget living in a dirty, cold city - you'll take the beach instead.Celebrity sightings, trendy restaurants, and clubbing all night are more your thing.And who knows? You might become the next beautiful person the paparazzi stalks!

Your Candy Heart Says "Hug Me"

A total sweetheart, you always have a lot of love to give out.Your heart is open to where ever love takes you!
Your ideal Valentine's Day date: a surprise romantic evening that you've planned out
Your flirting style: lots of listening and talking
What turns you off: fighting and conflict
Why you're hot: you're fearless about falling in love

You Are a Banana Split

Fruity, flavorful, and diverse.Who can beat a true superstar?

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.
Your negative traits:
You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it.You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.
Your ideal partner:
A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.
Your dating style:
Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.
Your seduction style:
Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.
Tips for the future:
Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.
Best color to attract mate: Green
Best day for a date: Wednesday

You Should Be Fashion Designer

Although you're offbeat and artistic, you have a good eye for trendsYou can figure out new incredible clothes to create... that will sell well!

Your Toes Should Be Blue

You're a little out there, but that means you take guys to a place that's out of this world!
Your ideal guy: Zany, hilarious, and totally unpredictable.
Stay away from: Anyone who has to get up for work in the morning

ok i'm tired of doing quizzes ):

2007-08-21T00:16:00.000+08:00

it's just one of the emo days.
when i just sat down, kept quiet
while listening to you talk non-stop.
it's nice to hear you talk.
it would be even nicer if i can join.
but it was just one of the emo days.
when all i do was kept quiet
and hear you talk to me.

He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
maroon 5;
she will be loved;

something i felt.
once.
long time ago.

2007-08-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

i'm afraid.
yes, i'm still afraid.
but how long can i stay this way?
i'll have to trust you one day.

and i continue praying and hoping
nothing will change.

2007-08-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

It is so easy to see
Disfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep
Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

nothing last forever;
maroon 5;

yes, i'm afraid to do so.

2007-08-11T11:42:00.000+08:00

why do you want to marry me?
so that i can kiss you anytime i want.

sweet home alabama;

awww. so sweet :)

2007-08-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

Perfect Stranger
got to catch this Halle Berry + Bruce Willis

full of twist, i must say.

spend my national day at vivo.

i was wearing red - unnoticed :D

(noticed it only when i was in the bus)

went vivo for ban mian :)

catch movie.

walked around.

he bought me a lollipop i always wanted :D

took train home.
looked through old movie tickets.

didn't know we had so much in common.

YAY LOLLIPOP :D

2007-08-09T15:12:00.001+08:00

SAVING PRIVATE RYAN

the movie everyone's talking about.
the movie my teacher's been talking about.
i read about the comments at rotten tomatoes.

and i have to agree.
it is nicer than windtalkers :D

i finally catch this movie :)

2007-08-07T21:56:00.000+08:00

~~i don't know what to say.~~

~~i'm lost for words.~~

~~you decide the next step.~~

~~let me know what's on your mind.~~

~~cause, my mind's blank.~~

~~and empty.~~

~~you played your part.~~

~~so did i.~~

~~we've come this far.~~

~~just to decide.~~

~~to end it or to start it.~~

back to the start.

i ain't happy.

should i?

should i not?

2007-08-04T22:47:00.000+08:00

need me to say more?! :)

2007-08-01T00:13:00.000+08:00

i tend to finish up my PI and WISP today.
i tend to finish up my PIP and CP tomorrow.
i tend to have a full rest after friday.
i want to enjoy my sunday.

however, i'm on the verge of giving up now.
i don't feel like continuing whatever i'm doing.
i'm out of words.
i'm lost.
and giving up doesn't seem so far.

i know i can't give up.
i have to continue.

and i don't know why. things aren't right these days.
i don't feel me.
crying my heart out can be one of the best solution.
it just don't feel right.

2007-07-29T23:30:00.000+08:00

hockey carnival at nyp.
went down super early.
stone, laugh and depressed.
depressed at the number of goals i let in.
kinda screw up, and a very big disappointment.
(i'm sorry girls.)
although my girls are very encouraging.
but still, i felt bad for not performing well during their first carnival.
proud of my girls. they played ~~well~~ very well.
was glad the guys team got to the second round. proud of them.

some referee were biased. maybe ain't that obvious. but what the heck.
i'm glad they didn't score during the penalty.
(got the penalty due to some NON-EXISTING rules)
if they did, screw the bloody referee.

managed to do some of my project today.
was too lazy to look at programming. programming sucks.
i might screw up this programming. but i can't afford to do that.
I DON'T WANT TO REPEAT THE DAMN MODULE!

so depressing

2007-07-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

tomorrow.
is one of the days i've been waiting for.
a game to play.
hosted by nyp.
can't wait to play.

but i just hate to be a last man.
i just can't do this position.
i've tried.
doesn't work.
and i don't like it.
but do i look like i've got any choice?
trusting and relying on my other defense for now.
hope it turns out fine.

oh crap. i swear i suck at this.

give me something to believe in.
cause, i don't believe in you anymore.

2007-07-19T22:25:00.000+08:00

today, isn't a day i want to go through.
i want it gone, forever. erased.
but, no, it can't.

let's see what screwed my day today.

oh yes, how could anyone forget how they screw their paper, although it was just a quiz. it contains marks, which could probably pull up your overall marks. even though it may be just one or two marks, it makes a difference. it's nicer to go around saying i scored 77 instead of 76. and i felt like an idiot, screwing each question in the paper. no one had any idea what these questions did to my confidence. my confidence in scoring zero went up quickly. and this just means another hour - or two - more of mugging for exam papers, just to get the proper stuffs in my head. well done zie. i'm so proud of you.

and what else could make my day. it's my assignment briefing. how enjoyable. it's exciting seeing everyone's faces getting blur, and soon looks like question marks. and the lecturer went on talking and talking, blissfully (and proudly), about the assignment she managed to set. unfortunately, i was there to hear the nonsense. and her words aren't very encouraging. i'm pretty much screwed for this assignment too.

kept quiet the whole day. had nothing much to say. okay, maybe i did say some stuffs to distract my mind. but my mind continue wondering, "what if i..." and i've got no answer to any of it.

impeccable.

and i cried till i feel like stopping.
but i've got no reason.
i've got no idea why.
i just don't know.
the tears eventually stopped.
and i'm still looking for a reason, to cry.

2007-07-15T11:55:00.000+08:00

14.07.07

the day i wished it never come.

but it came.

and she left.

it was one of the teary goodbye.

i hope she's fine there (:

i'm sure she is.

and i miss her crazy ):

i'm just looking for another reason to cry.

2007-07-12T13:28:00.000+08:00

gather at clarke quay at 7.
8 people were there.
the central. riverside indonesian food.
$10 per person. 6 dishes. grilled cuttlefish.
chit chat. jokes. pictures. music.
and not forgetting, the never-ending flight of staircase.

and most importantly, tess :)

was unhappy.
cried till i fell asleep.

2007-07-07T12:41:00.000+08:00

game's cancelled.
due to the rain.
moved around suntec.
had bk's wrong breakfast (order the wrong food)
waited again.
had some pissing off things going through my mind.
was so bad mood.
decided not to tag along for sentosa.
went home, and felt better.
on the way home, people are still pissing me off.

OH FOR GOODNESS SAKE,
FOR ONCE CAN SOMBODY DON'T PISS ME OFF!
stop making me repeat the things i say.
don't ask irrelevant question.
STOP SCREWING MY DAY AND MY MOOD!
argh.

today's just not my day.

2007-07-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

craze for riddles is back :D :D

lol. it started out when i was browsing through jokes in ruz's phone. and i was laughing alone in class -.- and due to this, i asked everyone riddles. and i can hear people are getting bored of me and my riddles. and i got some from the net.

and here's the questions!

what's mummy's favourite genre of music?
WRAP

what did invisible man drink during lunch?
evaporated milk.

what do you call a witch staying nearby a beach?
a sand-witch

why did the turtle cross the road?
to get to the shell station

what did the spider do on the computer?
make a website!

what you can't have during breakfast?
lunch and dinner

what did porcupine say to the cactus?
"is that you mummy?"

what gets wetter as it dries?
a towel

erm, i think i ask more than this. but i can't remember. this will do :D

i can't wait for saturday!

2007-07-02T22:51:00.000+08:00

30th June 2007.

tessa's farewell party.

bbq; chicken, bee hoon, hot dogs, crab meat, prawn and sotong balls.

laugh; chat; pictures, of course; catching up with everyone's life

miss them.

hope to have more of this :D

--------------------------------------------------------------

I'm sinking slowly

So hurry hold me

Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on

Please can you tell me

So I can finally see

Where you go when you're gone

If you want to

I can save you

I can take you away from here

So lonely inside

So busy out there

And all you wanted

was somebody who cares

michelle branch;

all you wanted <3

2007-06-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

CAMP CAMP CAMP!
:D
i had fun. i had fun. i had fun :)

DAY 1:
everyone assemble at 10. of course, i was there on time. some of the seniors were late. therefore, there was no briefing held. and like normal, some of the juniors were late too. so we waited till everyone was there. we played games the whole day. had training. and something bad happen. i hope she's fine :D and yes, i fell down the stairs ): we watched american pie.

DAY 2:
yay. woke up damn early. had training like normal. played games, such as murderers, curtain call, squirrel and trees. at night, we had night walk and took lots of pictures. and, we celebrated salim's birthday. sin ee was around the night.

DAY 3:
had a small tournament. i was quite pissed with myself. cause, i don't know why, i just can't play my best that day. and it was so depressing. i was close to tears ): slept at 4. played games like 3 blind mice.

DAY 4:
last day of camp. had photos taken. tons of it. until i'm dead. i love the camp. i love everyone. :D

i'm just glad everything went well. and i love the juniors :D

2007-06-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

TOMORROW :D

yes yes. tomorrow's camp. like finally. camp :D

:)

2007-06-16T21:01:00.000+08:00

'early morning today, i had an unexpected miss call.

'companied my mum to the hospital, just to find out that she got the appointment date wrong. but, doctor was nice. he decided to see my mum.

'went for dinner with family, meant to celebrate fathers' day. they unexpectedly ordered more than enough food. i was forcing the food down my throat. and i sat there like a balloon :x. i think i ate more than i should today ): i know i'm boring you people with my, erm, whine or complaints (whichever way you want to see it) about all the foods i've been eating, but i can't help it. seriously, it's depressing.

hey, remember me
i remember you walking away.

so, when the world falls apart, you only have yourself to hang on to.

2007-06-11T23:22:00.000+08:00

movie : ocean's thirteen

i watched this movie, last friday at vivo's cinema. it was a nice movie. very well planned (:

i had chalet from 8-11 june :D. met my cousins, aunts and uncles. it's just so great to hang around again. listen to their crappy jokes. although someone did manage to piss me off. but whatever, small kids, shan't elaborate. and my small nephew, is so cute, with his funny questions and answers.

the bbq was great. i was pampered with food throughout the whole chalet. never felt hungry, cause food never run out :x. but yes, i limit myself. played games, such as soccer, captain's ball and even dog and bone.

sometimes, it's just nice to meet the family. catch up what we left behind. and i love every each of them. that probably excludes the small kid that pisses me off. but well, couldn't possibly hate her that much right? i hope not. argh. she should just shut up :)

when you're prepared to love someone.
be prepare to lose him too.

and no i'm not ready. just yet. for anything, beyond my control.

2007-06-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and I crash sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm divin' into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

hanging by a moment;

lifehouse

2007-06-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

:)

common test ended yesterday for me.

the science paper (lol, i'm saying it as if i'm still in primary or secondary school with science subject), or my Introduction to Genomics and Proteomic - okay, don't ask me what's that -, was tough, but i managed to answer the questions here and there. hoping for the best :)

i've got The Devil Wears Prada for my PI common test. i was kinda excited, also felt a sense of relief, since it's a movie i've watched millions of time. the movie's nice. but the questions are not. all about philosophy and dilemma. erm, i'm not even sure if i was right in answering those questions.

and in my life, i just need some motivations to keep up with my exercises, which i always tend to screw early in the morning, and rather go to bed and sleep.

it's been weeks and probably months, but the tummy isn't much of a difference. how depressing.
do cardio exercises 3-4 times a week.
carbs food should always go with protein, or good fats. in another words, never eat it alone.
screw trans fat.
have lots and lots of sleep.
drink gallons of water.
eat 5-6 small meals a day.
include lots of leafy vegies in your diet.

2007-06-04T06:54:00.001+08:00

today's the day.
today's the 2 papers :D
the first and last.
then i'll have my holidays.

wish me luck :)

2007-06-03T00:39:00.000+08:00

date : 31/05/07

company : great :D.

movie : pirates 3 :D :D

DON'T MOVE. I DROP MY BRAIN :)

loves : cockles. photos. jokes. movie. starbucks drink.

date : 02/06/07
company : great :D.
movie : shrek 3

loves : cockles. jokes. movie. swensens. wedges.

can my everyday be like this?

2007-05-27T23:53:00.000+08:00

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry

You don't know how lovely you are

I had to find you

Tell you I need you

Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets

And ask me your questions

Oh let's go back to the start

Running in circles

Coming in tales

Heads are a science apart

Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing

At numbers and figures

Pulling your puzzles apart

Questions of science

Science and progress

Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me

Come back and haunt me

Oh and I rush to the start

Running in circles

Chasing tails

And coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy

Oh it's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be so hard

I'm going back to the start

oh yes, do take me back to the start. clear my mind. solve the puzzles.

2007-05-25T23:27:00.000+08:00

NEXT :)

Las Vegas showroom magician Cris Johnson has a secret which is a gift and a curse which torments him: he can see a few minutes into the future. Sick of the examinations he underwent as a child and the interest of the government and medical establishment in his power, he lies low under an assumed name in Vegas, performing cheap tricks and living off small-time gambling "winnings." But when a terrorist group threatens to detonate a nuclear device in Los Angeles, government agent Callie Ferris must use all her wiles to capture Cris and convince him to help her stop the cataclysm.

i've watched this fantastic movie :D. it's something everyone has to catch :) NICHOLAS CAGE!!!

and i wish i can see the future. only then, probably, i won't break so many hearts. ):

2007-05-17T12:45:00.000+08:00

Look off, dear Love, across the sallow sands,

And mark yon meeting of the sun and sea;

How long they kiss in sight of all the lands,

Ah! longer, longer we.

training was lovely yesterday. and tired too. (and i miss pebbles terribly. get well soon and come for training :D:D). now that the pol-ite games are brought forward to mid july, everyone's rushing for trainings and camps. busy busy busy ): however, i can't wait for camp :D and pitch training.

and i'll try to fix you; <3

2007-05-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

And Love,
Such a silly game we play, oh
Like a summer stay in may
What is love?
What is love?
I just want u to be love, oh

And I, I can feel it in your kiss
It just give me tender bliss
What is love?
What is love
I just want u to be love, oh

When i feel
You around I was mad as hell
When i hit the ground
And when i see
You laugh away
It hurts but I just wont say,oh

Love
Who can tell me I am lost
I just think that I am strong
What is love
What is love
I just want u to be love, oh

When I feel you around
I was so upset we fell on the ground
When I see you mad at me
You're such a silly fake oh

Love, such a silly game we play
Like a summer stay in may
What is love?
What is love?
I just want u to be love oh and I,

I can feel it in a kiss
It is something I will miss
What is love?
What is love?
I just want u to be love

and you said, promise me you'll love me one day.

2007-05-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO HELLO! :D

lol. i can see that so many people are missing me. sorry. lappie was pissing me off. so had to send it back to IBM.

anyways, for the past few days, i've been watching this comedy serial - Mind Your Language. it was introduced by my WISP teacher to show stereotypes. somehow got addicted, so i borrow 3 series from school library. although it can be racist, it is very very funny. should watch it :D it's about an english man teaching a few foreigners english.

mr. brown - as deaf as a?
max - postman
mr. brown - post. cause they can't hear
max - neither can my postman

school's cool for the past few days. and of course assignments and projects are compiling. looks like i'll be busier than ever. and i haven't been feeling like myself lately. however, i shall look forward to the upoming days. hope it'll turn out better for me. and i've watched spidey spidey(spiderman 3). his best friend, harry, is so cute :D:D

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you
-muse ; unintended
-a message for someone. :)

i've been feeling very depressed about life. i can't decide now or maybe not later. i don't know when either. but i've got to concentrate on myself now. i'm not being me lately. something change and it hits me a big time. i feel pressurized.

2007-04-20T18:56:00.000+08:00

like finally it's friday. first week of school was damn tiring. and i have a programming stuffs to finish up by today. and i have yet to start on it. damn. i'm dead. and i suck at programming. kill me :]

anyways. these are some of the pics from the 3 days of cca fiesta :D

oh yes. yeah. maybe i should stop whining like a bimbo. thanks for the reminder. do your programming now.

2007-04-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

ALOHA! :D i'm back like after a week.

oh well, today's 16th april. lots of stuffs happening today. 1st of all, it's izzat's birthday. lol. 2nd, it's the first day of school. 3rd, it's the cca fiesta :D

first day of school. slack like normal larh. i love and i love and i love my IGP teacher. she rawks like hell. i'm so looking forward to her lessons. she's funny and cute. and her lesson was interesting. but hell, i got some unwanted lecturer for my PIP module ): i swear i'll die in this module. grrr. and PI, oh man i love this module. teacher's boring, but module rawks! we watched a movie today. supposedly write a review on it? or something like that. cool :D shall bring popcorns for next week's movie. haa.

cca fiesta's happening. i love i love i love. haa haa. shall update with pictures like on wednesday.
:D

ciaos. i'm off to bed. damn sleepy and tired. i'm dead.

2007-04-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

:D:D:D

today's shopping day. joy joy joy! and again i didn't get heels. i can't find a nice lovely heels for myself :( shall get it some other time. it was raining at town. so we were like stuck at heerens. and i love everything i bought :D

and hanif had to make my shopping day shorter cause of hockey meeting.

i can't wait for school. i miss school. ok i think i'm the only idiot who says that. eh no. ruz can't wait for school too. lol. i'm looking forward to cca fiesta. ok. conclusion, i just can't wait for school!
:D:D

2007-04-04T23:46:00.000+08:00

and after each training, the feeling to quit gets stronger. everytime i'm on the court, i don't know what to do. and where to go. how to stop the balls. let alone defend. i feel so sucky after each training. people train to get better. it just seems to be the other way round for me. my push is so weak and slow ):

gawd. this is so demoralizing. ):

2007-04-02T19:40:00.000+08:00

i have to talk about today. i have to. and i have to. cause it's a super long day with a bad start and a little better ending.

today was the very first basic theory lesson :) was looking forward to it. but, lol, it was very boring. so we girls decided to go for both the lesson today. like get it over and done with. decided to watch a movie after that. all the movies we wanted to watch, was unavailable somewhere nearby, so we went town for BECAUSE I SAID SO!

the movie was damn nice :D:D:D it's a must watch movie. sweet and of course a very funny show. and wat else, the guy's damn cute :D lol. and during the end part was kinda sad ): but this was definitely worth it :D

and today, sorry to say, someone made me so pissed! i'm not going to mention who. but i was bloody pissed! i don't know why this someone is getting on my last nerve. ARGH! i'm just so angry. oh well, someone else did help in cooling down. but still, i'm pissed. argh argh argh.

ok, it may not sound like i had a long day. but surprisingly, i'm freaking dead tired. i sleep like a pig tonight.

i just need a break from the world. give me a break larh. stop pissing me off. and just give me a freaking break larh. god damn it. if you think it's nice living in my life. well, it wasn't, it isn't and it never will be nice. i'm not living a perfect life. so just give me a break larh.

2007-03-27T12:17:00.000+08:00

:D:D

back from chalet. chalet's cool and happening. especially with all the funny people around.

the girls went escape. played twister. prepare bbq stuffs. watched the recruit. watched the final destination 2. played twister again. then, start sleeping :D

lol. i realised the entries area seems to be shorter than my navigation area. :x ok randomness. i've watched TMNT :D:D. i'm so in love with the orange one :) he's so funny! but then, overall movie was ok.

tell me what to do. tell me what you want. and it seems as if everything i did was wrong. we have to face it. we have to let go of everything. we can't stay here forever.

2007-03-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

today's a super tiring day :D
and i spent money ): i think i better stop spending and save more! grr.
pizza's nice. and i love joanne's new shoes!

i can't sleep the whole night. my eyes are super black now ):

i'm so f***king angry. you're really too much. can't you ever freaking live you own life. and leave mine alone?

2007-03-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

:D:D
i love today's outing with the girl. although, i have to admit something. i was cursing the two monkeys for making me travel at a longer distance to novena! should have trusted myself! grrr.

bbdc - yes, i've registered myself. and i can't believe it either. and all along i was praying that i won't screw up the eye test :x and i did not. and the girl who registered us kinda attitude. grrr.

united square - wanted to go, since i've never been there before. it's boring :x but they had starbucks there :D. bought a drink and off to the next mall :D

velocity - checking out this new mall. kinda cool. not bad :D

peninsular shopping center - ruz dragged us here. she needs to check the price for the goalkeeper thingy. and the sales people there were so helpful. i love their service. THANK YOU :D:D and i wish i can buy all the sticks. love all of it! :D

marina square - okay. last stop. promise :D walked around a while and went home :D

love today. OH GOSH BRENDON URIE :D lol. so random :x

tomorrow is a new. it's another day. i wonder if i still mean something. i wonder will he say some last words before leaving.

2007-03-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

ALOHA :D
gosh, any sooner my sis will scream at me for using the com! :x but, who cares? hee hee.

trainings resume today. today's training is so slacked. we played every other games except hockey :x played captain's ball, red indian (screw this game) and soccer. don't know why i'm a little down today. didn't really move around that much during soccer :x. always get high about soccer, but today, a lil different. crap! and the balls the guys kick was so hard. i wanted to just scream! my poor leg ]:

i can't wait for chalet. and TMNT :D:D

i can't wait to finish off this week. kinda busy week.

i'm so into training :D

2007-03-12T20:07:00.000+08:00

*&%&$#^(&(*^$#@@!
sorry. i was super pissed off with this guy sitting behind me in bus 67. he's a toot! he did everything on purpose larh. when i move to another sit. he moved too. and purposely stick his hands out. lucky we're reaching. i wanted to just like stand up and ask what his problem! and again, i wish i had my hockey stick with me. *&%&^$^% him! grrr. i'm so angry. i wish i can complain larh. but then, to who? -.- GRRR! RAWR!

went back to school. to help out decorating the hockey notice board. didn't do much today. i was preparing to clean the clubhouse instead -.- can't wait for training to resume! yay!

last week, i rented some vcds. my super ex-girlfriend. you, me dupree. john tucker must die. omg. i love that movie! the guy is so cute, and the girls are damn pretty :D i can't wait for tmnt! :D

Where do I go?
What do I do?
Who do I turn to?
I'm losing my ground

2007-03-09T14:24:00.000+08:00

hello :D

i'm so tired. had a long day yesterday :x
yesterday night, met up with the hockey people again. meeting again. and yesterday's night meeting, made me felt as if there's so much going on. especially the ending of this year.

and i'm wondering when's my attachment. i hope it wont be really end. or else, everything will clash :/

anyway, this post is so random. so yeah. random. short and simple :x. i just miss blogging. HAA HAA.

oh yay. thanks people :D

and at one point of time, i was cursing the world. but i realised, that we're just not meant to be.

2007-03-06T22:51:00.000+08:00

:D:D:D

i've not been busy of course. just feeling super lazy to update ):

i was glad that the hockey chalet is still going on. i mean it's not cancelled :D yay. and i hope i did transfer the money properly. looking forward to it.

i was out today with ruz and joanne. to vivo. surprisingly, we didn't take any pictures together. we forgot to :x watched just follow law. god, that movie rawks. it's super funny :D and i was so glad that they got married in the end. cause, i was expecting that to happen. secret recipe was nice. forever 21 and topshop too :D

and i'm cursing which ever idiot which rate me low for no reason. freaking b****. gawd. i'm so angry with whoever did that. she went around and rate everyone low. how childish. orh FREAK! i'm so pissed off!

i guess
that this is where we’ve come to
if you don’t want to
then you don’t have to believe me
~~but i won’t be there when you go down~~
just so you know now
you’re on your own now believe me

2007-03-02T14:48:00.000+08:00

:]:]:]
yesterday was daddy's birthday.
oooh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY :D
we had cakes. erm, my sweet sour chicken which kinda taste a bit too sour :x and my tofu with vegetables which turned out just fine :D

gosh and i almost kill myself when i found out that i didn't save my work! so pissed! but i was surfing channing's net. gosh. he's hot. calmed me down somehow :) definitely a wallpaper on him today :D and i should continue skinning :D

lala. i love myself. i love life :D:D
and and i love CHANNING BRYAN ISAAC TATUM ANDERSON Y

families are webs. impossible to touch one part of it without setting the rest vibrating. impossible to understand one part without having a sense of the whole.
the thirteenth tale - diane setterfield

2007-02-28T23:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANIF!
aka fisherman/garderner/farmer.

yay. today was the celebration for hanif's birthday. erm, someone's 18. so, we had dinner together.
ruz, sin, jay, agnes, thiru, haikel, farhan, izzat. the mango tango cake. swensen. chicken baked rice. the laughters and jokes. the present. haikel's girlfriend's birthday song. and the freaking rude waitress. grr.
i'm loving all the hockey outing :D:D

loves loves loves :]
Y

2007-02-26T19:00:00.000+08:00

yay.
another day spent in town :D:D:D
did my shopping. gosh i spent my money ):
hee hee. i finally got my fitted jeans (they call it skinny jeans. but whatever.)
can't find any nice heels though. the next time then :D
bought 2 tops. yay.

currently addicted to fall out boy :D:D:D
shall make a wallpaper of them. hee.

back to work!Y

2007-02-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

numbness.
i felt as if i've got so much thing to do.
but so little time.
but sometimes, i find myself dying out of boredom.

meeting the hockey team much more often.
hope to meet up even more.
haa.
so much things planned. so little time.
okay okay. i should plan my days.

list:
cut hair.
dad's birthday.
library.
fitted jeans and heels.
chalet (i hope it's happening)
shop.
cycle and movie.
skinning, patterns and wallpapers.
pizza with sin (forced to write after reading tagboard [:)

and the list will go on...

my first picture :) shall put more of work! :D
featuring : PANIC! AT THE DISCO :D
picture from : purevolume
brushes from : fracturedsanity
font from : juvenilecasuality
pattern from : squidfingers

2007-02-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

hello :D
today seems like the start of the holidays. cause i'm finally out after so long :x
and it's sentosa time with the hockey people again.
attendance was low. cause the guys got to know last minute thanks to their captain!
so most of them can't make it, due to work and attachments and their own plans.
only 10 turned up.
to those 10, thanks for making the day. it was fun, although very little people.
and kat, thanks for organizing but it's sad you couldn't come along cause of your last-minute-work. :(
and izzat, stop being so emo can?

yay. i love the beach. the sun. the sound of the waves. the kids. hanif trying to catch fish and feeding peacocks. the murderer game. uno. the red indian(i swear i hate this game). the captain's ball. the scissors-paper-stone at the playground. the jokes and the laughters. the riddles : black magic, fuzzy wuzzy, clock, around the world in 80 days. and ban mian :D i just love today. at least a time-off for my mind. it's bursting.

~~dying doesn't seems so cruel now.~~ however zie, it's time to move on.

2007-02-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

When there’s no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

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and i'm praying to god. you bring me to this. i'm sure you make me pull through this too. make me strong once again. let me face the world again. i want to be free from pain. allow me to smile and stop me from crying. you're my only strength.

2007-02-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

arh. yes. the day i've been waiting for. last day of paper :D
gosh, you had no idea how excited i am and how hyper i am now.
and how heavenly it sounds when the ~~teacher~~lecturer say ,"pens down".
like no more papers. no more mugging. :D
and time for shop and play and skinning :D

today was like the bio paper.
seriously, i had no regrets taking bio. it's interesting learning stuffs like this. although sometimes the whole chunk of notes make me go kuku -.- but never ever revise last minute. it cramps my brain and my brain lagged for like the whole day of yesterday, till i vomited everything out today. paper was okay. as in, easier. probably cause i study :x

went town then. had a lil valentine's day celebration with the girls(joanne and ruz). was super hyper. cause, like finally :D felt so relaxed now.

and MCR's (My Chemical Romance) songs have been playing in my playlist and my mind. and i'm secretly, silently and slowly addicted to them. and their song play again in my mind;
-i don't love you like i did yesterday-
ok that was the only sentence i know, from one of their songs. but no, it doesn't goes out to anyone. i love you all more each day :D so, yay, mcr rocks. haa, it's playing again.
-And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me-
ok. i love this :D
rock music rocks :D